I went “there.” Have you ever done that? Gone “there?” To that place where you allow fear and uncertainty to rule your thoughts, rather than truth and light?
It can be pretty easy to do. I was taking an inventory of the past few months and quickly started sliding down into that pit:
• Two, yes two, job losses. Essentially accounting for 80% of our family’s income.
• A flood inside the house that caused tremendous damage and months of repairs.
• Health issues.
• Big deal problems at school for the kids.
• Household things breaking and needing immediate, costly repairs.
• Rejections in the job hunt.
When I look at it in a list, it can begin to seem a little overwhelming. The challenge can seem too great to battle through.
Well, in my own strength, it is. As I was muddling around in my pit of “woe is me,” the Lord pressed into my heart, Psalm 65. Curious, I went seeking. It is a psalm of thanks. A perfect reminder of all the abundant blessings that God has generously provided.
He was removing my blinders and letting me see that all of these things are nothing when compared to His love and power. I had fallen into the trap of trying to do it all myself and He lovingly drew my perspective back to Him.
Today, I read Psalm 27 in quiet time. Like a post script in a letter, verse 13 captured my gaze. David’s confidence in the Lord allowed him to proclaim that even in the midst of a deep trial, he knew the Lord would see Him through. I needed to remember that as well.
He loves us so much. He is right there in the middle of every trial and we are not supposed to face it alone. Turn to Him and let him in. It will make all the difference.