Just the title alone screamed at me to open it up and devour it.
Those words suit me to a tee. A tee I’d rather not look like, thank you very much. For years I thought, that’s just how I’m wired. I’m calm to a point and then once I slip beyond “that” place, look out.
My blood boils and my tongue lashes out at whomever it is who’s causing my anger.
Did you catch that?
I rationalized every instance of my own weakness by placing the blame on the person I chose to lash out at. Again, I figured, that’s just how I’m wired and they should know better.
It’s nearly comical. If the results weren’t so damaging. My relationships suffered, especially the ones of those I’m closest to – my husband, parents, kids, even friends on occasion.
God, I don’t want to be like this anymore.
- I want calm. I want to be equipped to handle those situations with a grace that can only come from You
- I desire peace. To face chaotic moments with the realization that no matter what the situation, You are in charge of it and it will work itself out
- I long for the ability to speak in love. To realize that the person or people who are in this crazy moment with me are not my enemy and that treating them with the love and respect they deserve is the only true response
So, I’m working through a book and online Bible study with about 15,000 of my newest friends. Together, we are studying Lysa TerKeurst’s lastest book, Unglued. We are all imperfect people searching for progress. Imperfect progress, sure. I’ll slip up, I’ll have a moment I’m not proud of. But, I will commit to moving forward and continuing to seek truth and wisdom that only Jesus can provide. And with that, I’ll make Imperfect Progress! And that, is just fine!
There’s a statement in the book that says “I’m not a freak-out woman.” That’s definitely a goal. I pray to get there. And when I do, I want to get a t-shirt that says just that – “I’m Not a Freak-Out Woman.” By the grace of God alone!
If you are interested, it’s not too late to join the study. We’re only in the first week – you can catch up, I promise. Just visit Melissa Taylor’s blog and get involved. www.melissataylor.org.
If I can do this, anyone can. Join me?