I am in a battle and I keep faltering.
Ever since my career was put on hiatus now nearly eighteen
month ago, the enemy has used this circumstance in my life as a point of attack.
Which, I know. Which, when my focus is rightfully on Jesus,
I can fend off.
Which, when I am at a weak point, the enemy swoops in and
fills me with feelings that I’m not good enough. That I’m too old. That my
skill set isn’t quite up to par.
All of these things, I know are untrue. But, he is crafty
and he uses things like yet another “no” to wreak havoc on both my self
confidence and my peace.
When I run, there is about a half-mile section of the route
I take that is a gravel and dirt road. It’s not well-traveled, but the cars
that do travel it have left tire grooves that have smoothed out the gravel.
These grooves are much easier to run in than the rest of the road. To the left or
tight just a little, and I’m in the ruts with loose gravel and bad footing. It
slows me down and threatens my confidence because this section of the path is
at both the beginning and end of my run – so when I’m gearing up and when I’m
struggling to finish.
If I stay in the grooves, I’m set. But if I lose focus and
shift to the left or right, I’m setting myself up to stumble.
God has been using
this part of my run to speak into my heart. He’s reminded me over and over that
the path I’m on is the one He had planned for me long ago. He’s provided many
blessings during this time. And, He knows what I need, better than I do. I NEED
to trust in Him. I need to give up this frustration over my unemployment, lay
it at His feet and trust Him.
That’s so much easier said than done – believe me, this I
know first-hand.
But His grace is readily available for all of us who ask.
Just tonight, while reading through Scripture, I came across a passage I underlined
in my Bible a long time ago:
“For I am the Lord your God
who takes hold of your right hand and says to you,
Do not fear; I will help you.” (Isaiah
41:13)
I don’t know what’s happening in your life right now, but I definitely
needed this beautiful reminder. It’s time to take hold of His hand and cling
tightly to it.
Great thoughts Patti! Thanks for sharing during this difficult time. I have written a lot about this very topic and here's one that may help. Thought I'd share. Grace, Donna
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